Then this past week, I had to go into Boothbay Harbor to transfer my safe deposit box and accounts so they are closer. I don't like going to my old town because it brings back memories. I have never driven by my old house and studio. I can't bear to see it - still miss it so much. And I know it's silly to miss a house but I do. So, I open the safe deposit box and there on top is my divorce decree. How in the world did it ever come to this? I ask myself. I still feel shocked at the knowledge that I am not married anymore. When oh when oh when will I cut loose this giant piece of rotting baggage that is tethered to me?
Now, before you hold a pity party for yours truly, I want you to know that I am really fine. I am content. I have wonderful loving friends and family. I have conquered my fears. And I like living alone - well not really alone because I have my girls. This is a minor setback and I think I will just drive those boxes back to my storage unit and deal with them next summer. By then I'll be ready. I'm sure of it.
|hydrangeas on my sweet little porch|